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03:40 pm
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I figure no one reads these things anymore...
So any ways, It's been a long time since I have broke down and had a real good cry... well I did last night... I have been missing everyone so much and I got the dumb idea that I should go through my photo album.... I started to tear up when I got to pictures of me, Jr, David, and Sami... I really started to think about just how much I really am missing everyone... and then I got to Grossi's Senior Pic. and I lost it... I miss everyone way to much. I love you all...Meg
Current Mood:  calm
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10:58 am
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It figures
Oh my lord, yesterday was the day from HELL! I swear everything that could go wrong DID, But, right now I am only going to vent about one thing...My car was broken into last night while i was dancing, it happened between 9pm and 10:30ish. They smashed the vent window, took my CD case (96 or 98) that was hidden under my seat... The one time that I don't take them out of my car before going dancing... and my face plate... the one time that I don't have a purse to put it in so I put it in my center console... They were obvousily new-bes cuz other wise they would have realized that every Toyota after-market CD deck is bolted from the metal base to the car. I am so pissed! I got to go and vist the police and make a report, but they can't really do anything, otherwise they would have come last night when I called...Figures just my luck....I want out of this hell hole called Santa Rosa.
Current Mood:  pissed off
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04:28 pm
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What the fuck is wrong with people
I can not believe it. So today I found out some really upsetting news. It happened last Saturday while my mother and David were food shopping. David was a little ahead of my mom and Kelton (for those of you who don't know... Kelton is my 5 year old brother). My mom had her hands full with groceries, while Kelton was walking next to her. There was a lot of people so my mom moved to the side. She tried to grab Kelton but since her hands were full, she was left with calling his name. Just as she was calling his name some grabby ass whole of a man, swoops in and puts his arm around Kelton. Kelton thinking that it was my mom kept walking. My mother then yelled my brothers name, Kelton looked up and to what my mom described as total fear, Kelton paniced. Just then David came in and rushed to pick up Kelton. And looked at the guy and screamed "what the fuck are you doing?" David then turned around pushing Kelton torwards my mom, and when David turned around to reconfront the fucker he was gone. What the hell?! I can't believe that people like this actually exist. I mean what the hell goes through somebody's mind when they try or succeed in taking a child. I swear that if I was there I would have ended up going to jail for murder. I swear! I just can't believe it. I am still so pissed.
Current Mood: irate
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05:18 pm
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hey all
Hey all,
I can't believe that it has really been this long since I have been able to get on a computer and update.
Not much has gone on since I last updated, I am (still) happy and in love with Billy. I'm not sure what i said last time but just in case... we are engaged. It's because of the christmas shopping season that it has been so hard for me to keep in contact with anyone anymore. But I finally found some time to fit people in again, I have a feeling that it will be changing again. But oh well. Oh yea, Billy is training for the store mangament position at FYE in the downtown mall. I am so proud of him, he is finally getting to do what he wants. Anyways, I gotta run, but I hope that all of you have had a great and safe Holiday and NEW YEARS! Lots of love to all kat.
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: none
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09:13 pm
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Wow, it's been a long time coming.
Wow, it really has been a while so here's most.
1. I moved in with Billy like 2 months ago.
2. Stephi finally moved in a few weeks ago.
3. I got a new car...1995 toy. 4runner...I love it!
4. Tyler (aka the fat man on the couch.) moved out today.
5. ...( I will let you all know after I tell one person inparticular.)
Current Mood:  indescribable
Current Music: Doggie's outside Barking...I love my babies
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07:10 pm
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Wow. People are weird.
I can't believe everything that is going on all at once. I am so happy that I just don't care about my past the way that I once did. Don't get me wrong I am so thankful that went through everything that I did...cuz it got me here. But after hearing Billy tell me that he loves me for the things that I have done to him and the things that I do for him...just makes everything so in the past.
Oh sad news...Catwomen (billy's sisters kitten) died yesterday and since he wasn't home they asked me to come over and look at her...I had to tell Mandy that she didn't make it. I felt so bad for her... But I let her know that atleast she was love during her time here. That helped a little. But to give Mandy time I took her 5 year old son back to Billy's and watched him for a little bit. We made Rice krispy treats and played spiderman 2 and watch aladdin. Gosh that kid is so cute. Well gotta run. Love to all. Meg
Current Mood:  sympathetic
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09:21 am
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At work and feeling Bad
I don't seem to have time or energy to do anything anymore. I go to work in the mornings and i get off in the evenings and I go to my boys house, have dinner and fall asleep watching a movie, and that's like at 10-10:30ish. I then get up and do it all over again. And on my days off the two that I get a week if I am lucky (meaning dont get called in)I stay in bed until like 1-2pm. I just don't have any energy. Tish called last night and wanted to play pool, I was so tired so we made a date for Thursday...I think...And then Jared called and wanted to go to the movies, I told him that I would fall asleep to within 5mins of the movie so I would reschedule with him. Ahhhhhhhhhh. I miss my energy. Love lots Meg
Current Mood:  blah
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05:48 pm
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Well, I'm on lunch
I am sitting in the e learning room at work, I am on lunch.
I am having a hard time dealing with my feelings in this new realtionship. I feel as though I don't have a clue. I caught myself the last couple of nights almost saying I love you... But after I think about it... I don't know if I do. I love being with him and we have so much fun... It's just... TOO SOON. I know this. It's been almost a month or so (not really sure) of actual titles and like two months of dating. Ahhh.
I hope that I remember to call Brady tomorrow...It's his birthday. later. Much love, meg
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02:20 pm
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Hey Jenni... I will miss you
Here is a special Hello going out to Jenni. I wanted to say hi so that hopefully you are not disppointed with the fact that no one updates. I completely agree, I check live journal like every couple of days and no one updates... myself included.
well, That's all for now. Love meg
Current Mood:  hyper
Current Music: Me want mocha.....
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06:28 pm
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I hate my dad
Right now I am at my dads for this stupid holiday thing. The first thing that he said when I walked in was "wow, isn't that skirt a little short." And then Judy buts in and says that those shoes are a little much for a sunday..." " Yea, okay well then it's a good thing that it's monday." And then my dad proceeds with trying to bitch at me and control my life by going on and on about college... and how he thinks that i should be a full time college student. Yea, too bad that if I am a full time student then I can't work and that means that I can't eat, have a roof over my head and I wont have a car. So suck it up dad. Good gosh I hate how that man thinks that since I have been away from his life for 6-7 years that now he thinks that it is time to play catch up Dad, and make up for all of the parenting that he missed out on. God. I am 20 I don't need some lame ass loser to tell me how to live my life and what is going to make me happy, because news flash Gary... You have no clue who I am or what is going to make me happy. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: the phone ringing
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08:40 pm
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At work trying to waste time
He all. I am still here at work, I am so tried... my dept. is clean and tagged and so I have nothing to do. i am trying to waste time till our clock says 9:30pm.
But other then that I am so happy. I am having so much fun... I need more money though, hopefully anchor blue will call soon. Anyways, my guy and I are planning and day in bed tomorrow...wink wink....just kidding. Although we are planning on spending the day in bed we have so many movies that we are planing on watching. I am so happy. Things are so cool between us. There is no stress. Which makes me wounder. But oh well. I am going to go. I think that i am going to play on one of the computers. Lots of Love. Kat
Current Mood:  working
Current Music: the music from car audio
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02:37 pm
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Before I let myself go...
my heart say we've got something real, can I trust the way I feel, cuz' my hearts been fooled before, am I just seeing what I want to see, or is it true, can you really be...
Someone to have and hold, with all my heart and soul, I need to know, before I fall in love, someone who'll stay around, through all my ups and downs, please tell me now before I fall in love.
I am at the point of no return, so afraid of getting burn, but I want to take a chance, oh please give me a reason to believe, say you're the one that you'll always be.
It's been so hard for me to give my heart away, but I would give my everything just to hear you say that you're someone to have and hold.
Current Mood:  nervous
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02:05 pm
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It's been a Long time coming
Wow, I almost forgot what it feels like to start to fall. I can't seem to stress over anything that I used to, Damn. My days are filled with smiles, laughs, hugs and kisses. I feel safe, I feel alive, I feel like my old self. I have always told my self to take nothing forgranted and to regret nothing, that everything that I am to go through leads me to where I need to be. And gosh darn it, If I am not suppose to be here now I don't shit about anything. I can't help but feel bad for everyone who can't be happy with just being them. Maybe it is true, you can't truly know anothers love until you love yourself. I stood up for myself almost a month ago now, and I did it. I did it for me. No one else did it, and did it for no one else. I took what was meant to be given to me...Respect for myself, and yes I now have someone to share it with, but even if I didn't I would still feel great about myself.
I know that he says that he has never felt love before, but I think that he has and he just got hurt, but I know that he cares for me, the smile that he has when I am around and that look that he trys so hard not to let me see, I know that soemthing is there. "I promise you that love wont be easy, I promise you there will be times when we're apart, but I swear that it comes from my heart when I promise you're the only for me."-Allure, You're the only one for me.
Current Mood: Twiterpated
Current Music: My whole cd collection
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07:37 pm
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It hurts, It hurts
I just got back from getting my tounge peiced. Owwwwie. It hurts so much tight now. Oh well it ws fun. Thats all for now. Lots of love later.
Kat
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: no music...just tv noise
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07:36 pm
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This one too
Current Mood: In pain
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07:34 pm
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yeah sure
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04:30 pm
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Hired
Hey there. Wow, life just keeps getting better and better. I feel bad that (you know who you are) are still hurting and reading this probably wont help. So I warn you a head a time. For the last couple of weeks I have been on five interviews with a special guy and I finally got hired last night. Last night I took him to see the whole ten yards. And after we got back I was just going to drop him off but he asked if I wanted to stay again. I said yes. Oh man that was such a fun time. Good god, I think I finally got it. Yea. I gotta go. Much love.
Love Kat
30 times... 3 weeks.... <- Trish typed that... hehe
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: the squeaking of the chair
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05:55 pm
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Do I read between the line to much or not enough?
So much has happened since Brady and I ended. I feel so free and alive. When I was with him, I trun into the little stupid helpess "but he loves me" type of girl...I just can't do that anymore. But now things are getting better. I feel as though I am everything that I need me to be, that I am strong, and not foolish. That I made the right choice and I have no doubts.
I wish that sissy could feel the same way, but in time she will. As soon as she realizes that he wasn't all that, he was a sweet guy yea, but she's so younge and so is he, they have so much time to find the "one" and settle down.
As for my love life... Oh man am I having fun. He is so cute. And I love hanging out with him, and making fun of him. I also like how he makes fun of me. It's cool, We always can put a smile on each others faces. He's not as quick as he may think. Hehehe. LOL. I am enjoying what is happening between us and I hope that it continues.
Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: The whole shebang
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03:42 pm
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do broken hearts really mend?
(http://www.leepresson.com/vlv/vlv0303.jpg)(Ignore that, just trying to remember a site and didn't have a pen.)
So anyways, I don't think that they ever really fully mend but they get damn close untill that same person, if you are foolish enough to stay, hurts you again. I had to call it off, I would still like to be friends but I know that that is the kiss of death, along with you are so sweet, but anyways. I feel bad but no one should have to go through what he and I went through. We both tried so hard. I guess that in the end it wasn't hard enough but it is for the better.
Anyways, on a happer note. No matter what he thinks he's still not getting that he is tall dark and hansome out of me. I wont do it. But I have to talk to Brain at work and let him know that he has earned the right to call me ice queen, by not making the morning to akward. And for that I do owe him. I was so scared to walk down stairs, afraid that he was gunna be weird, but thank god his not.
I have a new sense of confidence in myself thanks to a friends and all of his encouragement. Yes, if you are reading this I thank you. And you know what you said and did to help the confidence raise up even though it already was high, I feel as though things couldn't get better. I'll see him tonight again and hopfully it will just as much fun ;) as the other night. :::::Smiles a lot::::: Later all,
Love Meg
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: I'm just a baby in this business of love
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01:28 am
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Type of girlfriend are you
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Current Mood: hot
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